Before I start, every other Friday, I go over to my grandmother’s for the night, and we watch a movie and eat pizza, a super wholesome tradition we’ve had for over a decade. I suggested we watch Kung Fu Panda, because I love that movie. I had forgotten how absolutely immaculate that movie is. It unfortunately pales compared to Cars, which is unironically my favorite movie of all time, but Kung Fu Panda was so good. I recommend you watch it and laugh when it is dumb, but respect the actual storytelling they use. Okay, I can move off something great (Kung Fu Panda) and on to something/someone nefarious, devious, deceitful, childish, ignorant, dishonorable, immature, insecure, cruel, and pitiable (Tesla/Elon Musk).

After Tesla’s last earnings call, I wrote about how much they suck and how much Elon Musk sucks. Now, Tesla has gifted me another opportunity to hate, which is exactly what I will do.

I genuinely disliked Elon Musk. I have written before how I believe Elon is a startup founder, not a real leader; he is not a grownup, and I stand by all that. A few years ago, I had no problem with E-boy, but he has been sucked into this weird Alex Jones-esque pipeline, jumping at shadows, despite being literally the wealthiest man in the history of the world, and that feeling of second-hand embarrassment at many of his antics turned more into hate. I hated Elon Musk a million times more than I hate my arch-nemesis/best friend, Jim Cramer. Over time, that hate has morphed more into pity. Elon feels like a child in the woods, and I fear he will look back on the life he has lived with sadness. I do not think Elon has many friends, and I say that not out of cruelty but out of pity. I do not think Elon has people telling him the truth, and I think Elon feels lonely at the top.

I say this not to analyze the mind of a unique person (“All people are different people”) from a million miles away but because I believe it shows an insight into who Elon Musk is and why investing in him by proxy of his companies is a bad idea. Elon Musk is an unhappy man reaching out desperately for influence and attention, something he never received from his parents. From Fortune, “Elon Musk has post-traumatic stress disorder from a turbulent childhood that included time in apartheid South Africa and verbal abuse from his father, famed author Walter Isaacson claims in his new biography of the Tesla CEO.” Elon Musk was abused by a child, degraded, broken down, and melded into this current creature. A being well-conditioned for the ascent but without the temperament to sustain his pace.

Elon Musk has a brilliant mind; there is no disputing that, but not every genius is a leader. Many of them are not. Elon Musk is in a spiral, and as a human being, I hope he can right his course and better himself, but to do that requires much time and work. Elon runs seven companies; he simply lacks the capacity to change himself. He will work and work, plunging himself farther into a mire of self-indulgent lying, both to himself and the world, but nothing will change. The Elon Musk of today will be the same Elon Musk ten years from now. There is no point in investing in a man like that; there is no point in being a man like that.

I do not hate Elon Musk anymore. I pity him for what he could have been.